So Much More Than Okay
- Hannah Montgomery
- Dec 2, 2023
- 2 min read
Updated: Dec 2, 2023
Sometimes, I'm just not okay. What's going on in my life is not okay. The pain in my heart is not okay. Trauma and triggers are not okay. Nothing I do feels good enough, it seems like I'm doing everything wrong in what already feels like a complete mess of a life, and that's not okay either.
Back in early 2022, I had a conversation with God about it. I wrote it down in my journal as we talked. This is what He said to me about being okay.
02/19/2022
I said to the Lord,
"As long as I am loved by You, I can be okay."
The Lord answered me and said,
"You have MY love; you are so much more than okay."
Again I said to the Lord,
"As long as I know that I am not failing You, I can be okay."
Again the Lord answered and He said,
"I am the Victorious One. You belong to Me. All your failures are swallowed up in My VICTORY. Abide in ME. Apart from Me, you can do NOTHING."
A third time I said to the Lord,
"As long as I know that I am in Your hands, I can be okay. I need to know it."
A third time the Lord answered, and He said,
"You already know it. Lean into Me. Hold fast to what you already know to be true.
"Do you think that I would set you down?
"Do you think that after what I did for you, to make you Mine, that I would ever let you go?
"Do you think My hands are not big enough to hold you, or strong enough to keep you?
YOU ARE MINE
says the Lord. Lean into what you already know to be true. Lean into Me. Lean into My love which knows no bounds of space or time, which pulses through the universe like pounding thunder.
"I am the One who holds your hand. How could you be hurled headlong?
"Do you think Me clumsy, that I would drop an alabaster jar, filled with priceless oil?
"Or do you not know your worth to Me?
"Do you not know how I bled? How I suffered? How I was crushed? I didn't have to be.
"How then can you not know your worth to Me?
"Lean in, My Beloved, to what you already know."
And so I do. I lean into Him. I lean into knowing that in His infinite heart, in His capable hands, I am
LOVED
VALUED
TREASURED.
I am so much more than okay.
"Silent No More" clearly captures the predicament so many people are caught in - believing lies embedded in them from childhood and/or continually hurled at them by a vindictive foe. Realizing our gift of life in His truth and the freedom it brings is so very important, and you captured it in this post! Forever grateful that He has anointed you w/ pen and guitar....
H - I loved your writing the first time I ever read one of your journal entries scads of years ago - you have only become better and more anointed. Cheering you on precious friend!!